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Monday, December 21, 2009

22/12/09

hye=) there!!
christmas is getting near..
are you excited for it..?
i am sure you are..
nothing much to write in this post..
just want to share a song with you guys..
its very meaningful..
you can spend some time listen to it in my playlist or search it in youtube..
listen to the lyrics..
i hope the song will minister to your heart..
and most importantly i hope it will touch your heart..
GOD bless you..=)

P/s:warmness,tenderness and sweetness of a milo.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

21/12/09

one of my senior earn rm200++ through blog..
and i wondered how he did it..
its actually NUFFNANG..
well after register it and do many stuff..
i still cant figure out how does it works and how can i get money by just blogging..
haha..
anyway christmas is near..
its a time of giving and receiving..
hope you there who reading this will have the christmas spirit going on in your heart already..
its really been a long time since i updated my blog..
i promised i will update,update and keep on update after i finished all the things i need to accomplish within 31december=)
tata..see ya


Monday, December 7, 2009

8/12/09

maybe i am too easy to trust people?
or may be people dont trust me.?
you shall know the truth and it will set you free..
is it the more you trust someone the more disappointment you will get.?
only trust GOD alone will not disappoint you=)
even thought you may not trust me but still i trust in you.
SPM is going to end..
well i dont really feel excited for it actually..
just want to wish those who still taking SPM all the best and..
SELAMAT MERDEKA? to all who finished their SPM..

-an ending that end to begin a new beginning of a new chapter of life-

P/s:what we are now is not really what my heart speaks.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

01/12/09


i went to kledang hill with the youth and also children at 01.12.09 which means yesterday..
hoho..
i drove there..
its my first time drove so far..
thank GOD for HIS protection..
i have 4 passengers in my car..
3little kids and 1beautiful girl..=P
haha..
happy to take care of the kids and got splash water by them..XD
after taking lunch at a place call BIG FOOT TREE?LOL..
then we went to D.R park..
i dont blame the mosquitoes for sucking my blood cause i know my blood is sweet..
haha..
had a really great time there..
then drove the beautiful girl home and i nearly got lost back to my home..
LOL..
then around 7 went to sir kenneth house and study physics.?
haha quite shocked right cause i said i study..XD
around 12midnight sir kenneth forced me and whye jun to watch a horror movie "the mirror"..
okay!its not really that scary its disgusting!!
yiiiii...never liked horror movie..
after finished the movie 3 of us went to brush teeth together LOL.!!

P/s:GOD answered my prayer that i prayed for you.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

29/11/09

forgiveness is a choice or a gift.?
its a gift=)
GOD will always forgive our sins cause HIS forgiveness is a gift to mankind.

P/s:hope you take care of my "gift" that are meant for you.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

27/11/09

Its just that you cant feel it doesnt mean it is not there.
JESUS is always beside you,its just that you didnt realize it.=)

P/s:i still can feel your presence.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

22/11/09

if everyone deserve a second chance..
what about me.?
do i deserve it as well.?

P/s:still remembered i borrowed an hour from you?

Friday, November 20, 2009

21/11/09

sometimes there are words are really not meant to say..
sometimes it can hurts..
sometimes it can comfort..
sometimes it can be a promise..
sometimes it can change everything..
once it has been spoken you will never able to take back those words..
how i wish i didnt tell you the truth..
it was all my fault..

P/s:you've already weaken my heart.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

19/11/09

for your information today i had my SPM english papers..
when i did my paper2 there was a summary part..
so i read the story that are given..
i nearly cried after reading it..
LOL..
luckily i didnt..
i found the story in the internet..
do spend some time to read=)



The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he had told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.

It had been a year since Safiya, thirty-four, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. Once a fiercely independent woman, Safiya now felt condemned by this terrible twist of fate to become a powerless, helpless burden on everyone around her.

"How could this have happened to me?" she would plead, her heart knotted with anger. But no matter how much she cried or ranted, she knew the painful truth her sight was never going to return. A cloud of depression hung over Safiya's once optimistic spirit. Just getting through each day was an exercise in frustration and exhaustion. And all she had to cling to was her husband Meraj.

Meraj was an Air Force officer and he loved Safiya with all of his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again. Meraj's military background had trained him well to deal with sensitive situations, and yet he knew this was the most difficult battle he would ever face.

Finally, Safiya felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Meraj volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city.

At first, this comforted Safiya and fulfilled Meraj's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task. Soon, however, Meraj realized that this arrangement was not working - it was hectic, and costly. Safiya is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But just the thought of mentioning it to her made him cringe. She was still so fragile, so angry. How would she react?

Just as Meraj predicted, Safiya was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. "I am blind!" she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you are abandoning me."

Meraj's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. Meraj promised Safiya that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Meraj, military uniform and all, accompanied Safiya to and from work each day. Meraj taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment.

Meraj helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her and save her a seat. Meraj made her laugh, even on those not-so-good days when she would trip exiting the bus or drop her briefcase. Each morning they made the journey together and Meraj would take a cab back to his office. Although this routine was even more costly and exhausting than the previous one, Meraj knew it was only a matter of time before Safiya would be able to ride the bus on her own. Meraj believed in her, in the Safiya he used to know before she would lost her sight, who was not afraid of any challenge and who would never, ever quit.

Finally, Safiya decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Meraj, her temporary bus riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, his love. Safiya said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly and Safiya had never felt better. Safiya was doing it! She was going to work all by herself!

On Friday morning, Safiya took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying for her fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Sister, I sure envy you."

Safiya was not sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"

The driver responded, "It must feel so good to be taken care of and protected like you are."

Safiya had no idea what the driver was talking about, and asked again, "What do you mean?"

The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you when you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches you until you enter your office building. Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky woman."

Tears of happiness poured down Safiya's cheeks. For although she could not physically see him, she had always felt Meraj's presence. Safiya was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she did not need to see to believe - Gift of Love that can bring light where there had been darkness ...


P/s:my heart is calling out your name.


Tuesday, November 17, 2009

17/11/09


few months ago..
there was a very close friend of mine shared a song to me..
at first when i listen to that song..
its sound just normal for me..
nothing much..
just a song with nice lyrics..
as time passes by i rarely listen to that song anymore..
one day i decided to listen again to that song cause that close friend of mine said it is very meaningful,trust me..
when i started to listen back to that song..
i realized it wasn't just a nice song that's all..
if you really listen and read the lyrics carefully may be you will catch something..
well for me the song was really good..
below are the lyrics..


Only Hope.


There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.


that's the lyrics..
sometimes when someone shared a song with you..
don't ever take it lightly..
maybe there is something within that song that your friend or someone close to you want to express something to you through it..
appreciate every single word from the song..
trust me=)
you will never regret.

P/s:maybe one day you will lose me.
maybe one day we will be far apart.
maybe you cant see or feel my heart anymore.
but actually its already beating with yours.
although you cant feel it but it doesn't mean that it is not there anymore.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

16/11/09



hey=) there!!
try to watch the video above..
well after watching it..
do you received something..?
does it give you understanding towards something.?
feel free to leave comment in the chatbox if you have anything to ask me.=)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

13/11/09


these few days i drove to church..
and i drove to JJ today..
well its not as easy as what i thought..
=P
thank GOD for journey mercy all the time..
and thank to my passengers who put faith in me that i will get them home safety..
ALI-AH-TORH!!

GOD doesn't change you from the inside out so that he can set you on a shelf or in a dresser drawer,never to be used.
Instead,he equips you and send you into the world to make a difference.
You cant help change the lives of others unless you get into their lives.
Take the step of faith today.

JESUS loves you=)

Monday, November 9, 2009

To learn,you must love discipline;
it it stupid to hate correction.

proverbs 12.1


Saturday, October 31, 2009

31/10/09

have you ever received praises like..
"hey!you look good when you smile"
sounds familiar..?
do you know that no matter how ugly you think yourself is..
you are actually not ugly..
you will look extra pretty and handsome whenever you smile..
trust me.!
try to smile more to people around you..
dont believe me..?
you can try to do this..
start your day with a smile on your face..
let me ask you..
do you like people with 'papaya' face..
or so call COOL face..
thats not cool at all..
seriously..!
we often fell in love with others cause he or she have a smile on his or her face thats capture your heart..
what about you..?
do you know your smile can cheer up people around you..?
trust me..
SMILE more,more and MORE!


JESUS loves you=)

Sunday, October 25, 2009

25/10/09


Focus..
you always heard people asked or tell you to focus on what you are doing..
so that you wont easily get distracted..
well..
i am sure you know that laser is actually a light energy that is focusing all its energy in a point..
and laser can do many great things..
it can cut through metals..
it can also carve diamonds..
with laser we can now do laser surgery for eyes and other parts..
isnt that amazing.?
have you ever tried watching tv while doing your homework.?
arent you not focusing.?
and what you will end up.?
you sure miss out some very interesting parts in the tv or you cant finish up your homework..
and you will waste lots of time in the end..
if you dont believe me you can try it you=)
success in LIFE is all about being focus in your destiny..
you cant be a double minded person to excel nor success..
double minded simply means people who cant make decision in their life..
its like one minute they feel like going to Jusco then one minute later they feel like going to ipoh parade..
double minded always cause confusion..
GOD created you and i for a purpose..
we may have different destiny in LIFE..
but the one who gave you your destiny in LIFE is GOD..
what i am trying to bring out here is no matter who you are and whatever destiny GOD has planned for you..
i hope you can focus all your energy and work towards it to fulfill the destiny that GOD has given to you..
GOD bless you=)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

23/10/09


we always asked people or even asked ourselves that what is LOVE really about..?
there are so many definition of LOVE..
some people say love is a game..
which is nonsense..
seriously..
if you think that love is just a game..
i guess you still dont understand the true meaning and the perfect definition of LOVE..
you just watch and listen to this video and think about it..
enjoy=)



this are the lyrics for the song=)

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is. But I'm a tell you what true love is. Love is not what you see in the movies. Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene, you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice. Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself, love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love. Love is when you lay down your life for another, whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister, its even laying down your life for your enemies, that's unthinkable, but think about that. Love is true. Think.


I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love

I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love



Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres.
Love never fails. Love is everlasting, its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time, love is the only thing that will last when you die, but ask the question why? Do you have love?



There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends. Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends? You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother, your father, or your best friends, but are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you? I'm going to tell you who did that, the definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love. The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow, hanging on a cross for your sin my sins, that is LOVE he died for you and me while we still hated him, that is love. God is true love, and if you don't know this love, now is the time to know, perfect love.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

19/10/09

i was checking around my facebook..
then i go through a note from one of my member..
she wrote this note right after attending 1malaysia event that is held on sunday night at stadium indera mulia..
below are the notes that she wrote..

i just attended 1MALAYSIA..BERSAMA RAKYAT NEGERI PERAK FUNCTION..
i can see the malays really have the heart for this function that is held..
although there are many people attending but i found out that some of people can be physically attending the event while chatting,texting,listening to songs,and fooling around..
where's the love towards the nation..?
is this what we call semangat patriotik.?
when i looked at other country..
i was so amazed how the people united together..
waving the malaysia flag without a heart is acting..
shouting and cheering just for the sake of the crowd is acting..
saying yourself as a true Malaysian but without proving in any action of love towards this country..
UNBELIEVABLE!!
well,we should just pray for this nation..
the kings and leaders,those who have authority over us..
just pray..no matter what, God is still in control.

-end-

ya..its really true..
sometimes we often blame or even curse our prime minister or those who are higher authority on us cause they did mistakes or when they dont do things correctly..
what about YOU..?
didnt you ever made a mistake before..?
why dont you stop complaining and start to do something that will benefit or contribute something to our country rather than just sitting there and complain,complain and complain all over again at our country..?
think twice everytime when you tell people that you are a MALAYSIAN..
are you really a true MALAYSIAN.?



Saturday, October 17, 2009

18/10/09


thank to the LORD.!
i passed my driving test with HIS help..
HE gave me a new pair of converse shoe..
i love you JESUS!

P/s:i would never ever let go of you.you know right.?

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

14/10/09

when things seems to go wrong..
there is always a voice beside me telling "dont give up you can still go on a little bit further"
when the world seems to be so dark..
there is always a little light that guide me through..
when everything seems so silence..
you filled my heart with songs that never end..
when i am all alone and no one to talk to..
you whisper to my heart that no one can hear..
when i am hopeless and about to fall..
you gave me a hope that never fails..
when i am lonely..
you filled the loneliness in ways that human cant define..
when i asked for help..
you always gave all the best you can to get me through..
maybe there are times i really forsaken you..
but you were always by my side and never left me..
when i think you dont love me..
you actually had showned your love towards me upon that cross thousands years ago..
when i seek you for ways..
you guide me ways i do not understand at all..
when i think everything was so messed up..
you are actually testing my faith and moulding me..
when i asked you where is the right one..
you didnt tell me..
neither show me..
but you let me to decide myself..
i asked you to decide for me..
you didnt..
but you tell me that no matter what decision i made..
you are still in control..
thank you!

P/s:i was trying to someone to you all this time.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

12/10/09



do you still remember your when was your first love..?
your first lover..?
is it true that first love wont last forever and its just a memory..?
from the people i know around me..
all their current girlfriend or so called wife is not their first lover..
i wonder why..
i knew a pastor who had already married..
and his wife was his first and last girlfriend..
which means his first love..
wow.!
thats really inspired me..
something like this to happen for nowadays is like 10%..
is it first love always disappointment and hurts.?
well for me of course i want to be in the 10%..
i knew GOD will help me and guide me..
in HIM i trust all my trust..
what i can do is do everything that is possible and let GOD do the impossible.
=)

P/s:maybe there are things that are not meant to be together.

10/10/09



this is a song that my friend sent to me..
i listen to it few times and it was caught within my heart..

To Be With You=)

I've been alone so many nights now
And i've been waiting for the stars to fall

I keep holding out for what i don't know
To be with you
Just to be with you

So here i am, staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too
To be with you... there's nothing i wouldn't do

And i can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet i'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you

Just to be holding you for the very first time,
Never letting go
What i wouldn't give to feel that way

Oh, to be with you
And i can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually

And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when i know that god does exist
'cause he will have answered every single prayer
To be with you

Just to be with you, yeah

You..

P/s:its all about to be with you.

Friday, October 9, 2009

10/10/09

maybe this journey is still long and far ahead
but you and i are still continue walking..
HE who is above us is leading and guiding us step by step..
we are walking in this journey together..
this is a walk to be remember forever and ever.

P/s:i never doubt you cause i put all my trust in you.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

07/10/09

is it true when you kept on thinking of someone or missing someone too much you will dream of that person..?

P/s:i would never ever put down on you

Sunday, October 4, 2009

04/10/09

K:"if you want something you have to let go of something."
D:"lets learn to be more selfless not selfish."
S:"its not you guys de season anyway so dont bother of thinking about it okay?"
H:"apply 10/90 principle in your life and see the changes."

oo..
what a great day of learning so many stuff all of sudden..
need some time to digest everything..
truly time is short already..
must really focus on what GOD want me to do for him and his people..
somebody say that i am being distracted in this journey..
okay okay!!
time for self-checking up already..
someone told me that i come shining through..
hehe..

P/s:lets not dwell in the past but keep move on for a better future.

Friday, October 2, 2009

02/10/09

i didnt go to school today..
reason is lazy..
i spent almost all my time in front of the computer..
i watched the myth by jackie chan..
the song endless love he sang with a korean girl was very nice..
i like the lyrics..
*thumbs up*
later on i decided not to game so i watched some video people posted in facebook..
there is a video about 5/12 some major eathquake in china i guess..
it moved my heart when i saw those people working so hard to save lifes there..
and then i think of myself..
after 17 years living in this earth what did i do that contribute to this world..?
i wonder..
am i living a meaningless life then..?
if there is a chance that i can do something that i can contribute to my nation or to the world i would sure stand up for it..

everyone has the power to save the world..
i want to play a part to save the world too.=)
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anyway i changed the song in my playlist..
its a song recomended by my friend..
enjoy^^

P/s:you heart and mine beat as one.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

02/10/09

well..
i hope that i am actually a easy going and cheerful person..
haha..
people used to called me EMO KING last time but that is another story..
but seriously larh i am not EMO at all..
LOL..
hmmm..
the most important ingredient to maintain a friendship is to be honest..
i always believe that to be honest with your friends can help the friendship to grow stronger..
i dont used to lie to my friend cause i just dont like to lie..
XD
i am serious..
i felt really hurt when some of my friends lie to me or hiding the truth from me..
i just dont understand why they wanted to do this to me..
am i not a friend of yours.?
if i really happened to lie or hiding something from you i am truly sorry..
and i promised it wont happen again..
i really hope you will be honest with me..
i need a real friend..
i need a real friendship..
i hope that you are not a friend that fake yourself to me..

there is a saying:once a friend forever a friend.

P/s:do you think that i could afford to lose you.?

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

01/10/09

yay!
i got back a few papers from teachers..
hoho..
i finally passed my sejarah and add maths..
first time ever after for so long..
well i am not a very good in study students so its truly a miracle from GOD that i passed my subjects..
one of my friend failed his add maths when all this time he always score well in it..
when he knew i passed he said i LC him worr..(means boastful)
seriously i am happy only not boasting about it..
i am really sorry if i ever too boastful..
maybe i am just to happy about it and i forgot other feelings..
thousands apologies.!
on sunday night i chatted with a heng dai of mine..
he gave me a few words of encouragement in my LIFE..
he said "grow up and focus on your studies.you will know what you want in the future"
ya!
i cant just satisfy with everything now and just stop my journey now..
i want to keep moving forward..
i know what i should focus on..
all this time i too focus on other things until i forgot a very important thing..
UNITY!
i never realized i was thinking of "i" instead of others..
from now on i chose to say "we" instead of "i"..
someone told me:"remember that unity is most important in a group.do not ever let anything that you want in your life bring disunity to the others.with higher authorities you have,the greater responsibilities you have,John"
let's move on together okay.?=)

P/s:every decision is made upon your heart.


Sunday, September 27, 2009

28/9/09

i still remember there was once my friend asked me a very easy question yet for me to answer..
he asked..
"John if you were to choose between a friendship and a relationship..which one would you choose.?"
haha..
i was stunned for minutes?i guess hours..
=P
i wondered what is my friend answer..
the one who asked me..
well until today i still cant decide yet..
its really tough larh..
dont believe me.?
try ask yourself..
XP
i was reading my inbox and i found a message..

one day LOVE and FRIEND went out for a walk.
suddenly LOVE fall into the river cause LOVE is blind.
FRIEND quickly jumped into the river and save LOVE.why?
a good FRIEND will always be there for us no matter how.
But.
FRIEND couldnt find LOVE.
cause LOVE is too gentle and fragile,easy to lost,easy to be hurt if its didnt being take care well.
finally FRIEND gave up and leave LOVE there.
FRIEND will ignore us if we dont know how to appreciate them.

-the END-

aha!thats it..
LOL..
maybe you have read this message before..
but nevermind you can still read it again..
haha..
well tomorrow school reopen lerh..
next month is gonna be the last stand..
the last month of chiong-ing all the way to SPM..
i am excited to looking forward for my trials results..
hoho!!

P/s:sometimes things fall apart so that better things fall together.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

23/9/09

i guess you will call this random blogging..
hmmm..
after a trip in cameron i have learned a lot of things which can apply into my life..
hoho..
LIFE is always full of trials,excitment and unexpectation.
along the trip in cameron with my youths..
i found out there was a fruit call 'ai qing' fruit..
which means love fruit..
i think so xD..
the reason why they named it love fruit is because it has many taste inside the fruit..
if i am not wrong the fruit taste bitter,sour and sweet..
hehe..
i ate skittles on the first night..
then once again i realized something again..
the taste of a skittles is sour then only sweet..
in LIFE sometimes we need to endure things that are really really sour or bitter..
but after that we will get to taste the sweetness in our LIFE..
then another thing is about strawberry..
i found out a fact of strawberry from my youth leader..
she said that once you touch a strawberry you must harvest it..
and strawberry is very fragile..
LOVE somehow is like strawberry..
sometimes we often try to touch it without harvest it and thats why we always hurt others or ourselves..
i have never touch LOVE cause i dont understand how it works..
i dont understand how it progress..
but i learned..
i decided to touch the strawberry in my LIFE..
and i am gonna harvest it with all my heart..
and finally one last thing..
sometimes a sacrifice can bring eternal happiness..
thats why i chose to sacrifice something for you.=)

i remembered this moment with you.
i appreciate and treasure this moment=)

P/s:its not by words to win your heart,but its by time that win your heart.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

08.09.09


my faith is shaking sometimes..
its really really still a long way to go..
but i want to keep pressing on..
just keep on going and going..
i hate getting stumble down..
i hate falling down..
it is pain..
it is even more pain when there is no one to lift you up after falling..
i cant always depend on you to lift me up back..
"keep moving on.."
i trust my heart..
i still trust you..
i still want to walk this journey with YOU and you..
YOU didnt promised to me that this journey is gonna be easy..
but you promised that you will always be with me to walk this journey..
still rememeber your promise.?

P/s:i still remember the promises you made to me.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

01/9/09


promise me to always smile okay.?

P/s:your smile captured my heart.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

for us



Love is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.
It does not demand its own way.
It is not irritable,and keeps no record of being wronged.
It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up,never loses faith,is always hopeful,and endures through every circumstances.

1corrithians 13 verse 4 to 7

P/s:this will be a verse to us to strengthen our relationship.

Monday, August 24, 2009

update



hye=)..
really sorry ya cause didnt update for a long time..
it is because i sent my comp to reformat and trials are near..
so dont really have the mood to online..
anyway i have been doing fine these few weeks..
i went for driving lessons and i realised it wasnt easy at all.!!
i thought driving is just like stepping here stepping there then move lu..
i got 'tegur' by my instructor until i got little bit phobia towards driving jor..
haha..
wait till one day i get my P license..
just wait!!


=P
trials are near..
so i try to spent almost a whole day of studying..
and guess what..
my brain nearly burned off..
i did my add maths questions with whye jun and andrew in kenneth house..
from 12.something to 2 o clock..
earlier on we spent hours on physics jor..
seriously study is quite fun when you understand it and when you curios about it..
education can bring laughter to you..
we had a good laughing time when we study physics about the two balls hitting each other and create a momentum..
its all whye jun fault!!
his brain process the wrong thing..
haha..
the next few days not going to online cause i am going to attend a movivation camp on preparing for SPM starting from tomorrow till friday in my church..
i guess thats all from me..
tata.!



seriously i am really excited for SPM trials..

P/s:let HIS love guide us through everything.

Friday, August 14, 2009

update

hello=) everyone.!
i know i know..
my blog seems like kinda dead..
these few days..
urm i mean WEEKS..
i dont feel like blogging..
so can say semi-hiatus lerh..
promise will blog once back in the mood..
xP
trials is just around the corner..
hmmm...
so thats all larh..
currently going through a tough time.?
guess so..
haha..
DONT worry,be HAPPY!

P/s:i wrote your name in the sand but the water wash it away.
i wrote your name on the sky but the wind blew it away.
so i decided to write your name in my HEART.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

with you

P/s:i wanna grow old with you!=P

Monday, August 3, 2009

i know that you are for me

trials is just 28 more days..
i began to feel a bit excited for it but a bit nervous at the same time..

i really tried my best to do revision for 30minutes..
phew..
study is really a hard thing to do..
but must continue to push ON..
no matter how hard is it i still have GOD..
i still have her supporting me..
my leaders,my youths..
and my friends..
jiayou JOHN!!
i need group study..>.<

she shared a song with me..

its in my playlist..
thanks for the song.=)

P/s:then are you for me.?

Friday, July 31, 2009

heartbeat


P/s:your heart beat is my heart beat too.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

broken


haha..
what is the feeling when you get betrayed..?
what is the feeling when someone manipulated the whole truth from you and telling you something else and yet you give all your trust in her/him..?
i thought its very easy to just forgive and forget..
its really not easy as saying it..
nevermind just take it a lesson..
=)
hmmm..
school has been suspected having H1N1 virus and yet everyone is so happy for holiday..
LOL..
some of my friends keep on looking at me when i just had a cough in front of them..
funny..
thats all from me..
chow~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WHYE JUN!!

you are still very unpredictable..=P

P/s:no matter what i have to do,i will be waiting for you.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

done


i had taken a path where no one know why..
i had decide on something which no one understand why i decide it that way..
i had did something that no one know for what reason i did it..
i had sacrifice things that everyone think its stupid to do it..
i had tried to do things that everyone think its impossible for me..
i had a crush on someone who no one would ever expect include myself..
i had done so many things far beyond my thoughts..
i know that HE is the one who lead and guide me through to do everything that far beyond men wisdom and thoughts..
i know there is a purpose behind for everything HE called and lead me to do..
no matter how tough is it..
its just simply because..

"love the LORD with all your heart,all your soul,all your mind and all your strength"
mark 12:30

157 more days to another new chapter of my LIFE..

P/s:what do you expect from me in times to come.?

Thursday, July 23, 2009

random


we always complain or mumble over school..
cause of homeworks..
folios..
exams..
and need to wake up so early everyday..
haha..
when i looked back at my school life..
i began to questioned myself..
have i really appreciate my school life..?
i guess the answer is no..
what about YOU.?
but i started to know what school is really about since form4..
i will never forget my form4 life and also my form 5 life although i left only few months..
during form1~3 life is just like wasting time..
doing things without purpose..
but since form4 GOD began to sent me friends that i would never expect to have..
friends that are faithful,kind,caring,and lots more that are so valuable to me..
their presence in my life had taught me thousands of life lessons..
i am not ME by myself..
but is they who made ME to be myself..
haha anyway how do i come to this ya..?
LOL..
hmmmm...
july is going to end soon..
august is just around the corner..
trials is not so far away..
so do SPM..
all of my friends have impacted me in my life..
so this last few months is it my turn to impact my friends life..
=)
if i have ever just say a hi to you..
or either way..
you are consider my FRIEND..
i will never hate you for who you are friends..
but to love you for who you are..

''love your enemy as how you love your brother and sister''

P/s:you look into my eyes.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

grats!


just a short update..
first of all..
GRATS to
CHERYL KONG HUNG MUN..
*she gonna skin me again*
grats for scoring 45/50 for your undang ..
you a re qualified to take your driving course..
LOL..
today i didnt get caught by my disiplinary teacher..
seriously it was a miracle..
i felt sorry for others who got cane..
hope you guys just dont worry,be happy!
5S1 still rock the school!!

P/s:beauty will fade one day but my feelings towards you would not ever fade away.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

relief..

yay!!
at last i took my undang test and i passed.!!
hehe..
praise GOD..
although i slack a lot but i still managed to pass with 44/50..
HOHO!!
thanks to those who have been praying for me..
and also wishing me all the best..
thanks a lot!!
now need to arrange time to go for car driving lessons lerh..
on friday i joined justin birtthday celebration at sky corner..
although its kinda expensive but it is worth.
happy very belated birthday to JUSTIN..

i am wearing pink that day..gay~
xD
at last feel relief and happy lerh..
today was first time serving in children church..
although its not perfect and i did mistakes but i know i can only learn through mistakes that i did..
must continue jiayou jiayou!!
love my guitar more and more..
feel like blogging my guitar tim..
=P
HER favourite spot is beside someone..
once again the song in my playlist is for her..
hehe

P/s:i wish i am the one you want to stay beside.



Tuesday, July 14, 2009

dream cafe


its really hard to believe that my friends and i chat about what are we going to do in the future..
around after 10 or 15 more years later..
they plan to open a cafe shop..
and they count me in..
they already have the idea of the cafe..
the name of the cafe will be..
"dream cafe"
haha..
sounds weird for you..?
dont know larh..
but i guess thats not a very bad idea huh..?
some suggested anime cafe..
which is everyday the waiter will need to wear different types of COS-play to serve the customer..
another friend of mine pulak dirty minded..
he say want make all the fork,spoon,glass and others looks like human body parts..
its like a finger fork..?
a ass shape bowl..?
LOL..
dont want think about it jor..
naughty boy!!
who knows what will happen in the future but indeed this cafe thingy idea is not bad..
dare to dream..
live the dream..
and it will not just a dream anymore..

P/s:i am always with you no matter where are you.


Sunday, July 12, 2009

samantha

well..
i guess a i am really a lucky guy on saturday..
>.<

hahahaha..
one guy with 5 girls..
actually we are celebrating samantha's birthday..

here is the birthday girl..
happy belated birthday..
i guess she enjoyed being prank by her friends..
i kinda lazy to blog hows the party goes that day..
for more info..
click on this link..

http://ocean-mylove.blogspot.com/

thats all for saturday..

a decision can change everything..
a simple yes or no can decide something..
why its so hard to decide something when its just a yes or no..?
its like tossing a coin..
its either head or tail..
either yes or no..
or also to do it or not to do it..
*take a deep breath*
i really hope every single decision i make will not turn something to worse..
i have once decided to do it and i shall not regret for what i have decided to do..
no matter what is cost for the decision i made..
it is still YOU..

P/s:is it you who i have decided.




Thursday, July 9, 2009

random

well..
yesterday which means wednesday..
our school organise an event..
acrobatic dance..
LOL..
we all enjoyed the dance although some of the moves was quite sissy..
haha..
when i started to think back..
everything like so fast..
form1 then suddenly now form5..
last year of schooling..
last year of being scold for not finishing up homework..
last year of laughing together with your classmates..
last year of doing crazy stuff and getting scold..
well..
we all have grown up lerh..
no longer small kids who used to run around..
playing achi kejar..
few more months to trial..
few more months to SPM..
few more months its a gonna be a new beginning of a different life..
i always hate school so much cause may be education lerh..
and may be i dont find that is it fun being in school..
but just dont know why suddenly i wish i want to stay in the same school for another year studying together with my friends..
i regret that i never really appreciate the time when i am in school..
always just thought of skipping school..
haha..
i guess next time there wont be chance for me to skip school anymore lerh even if i want..
without realising now july already lerh..
*take a deep breath*
well..
we should always look forward..
although this season of studying gonna end soon..
but i will end it without regret..
^^v
er..anyway i guess i am like crapping..
xD
dont blame me for this post..
just write whenever is in my heart..

P/s:i am silently missing you without telling you.

Monday, July 6, 2009

him

maybe i am not the perfect friend for you..
but you gave me your perfection to my life..
maybe i cant give you the feeling of trustworthy..
but you trusted me with all your heart..
maybe there are times i didnt even bother or care about your feelings..
but you was there care and look after me when i am unhappy..
maybe we always argue for the past..
but i really really hope you will just forgive me for what i have done to you for the past..
maybe we can still laugh and talk together..
but deep inside my heart i really hope that the past would not hold you anymore..
i am truly sorry that my words and action hurt you so so deeply that there is a scar in your heart..
sorry..
thats all i can say..

P/s:if you think i amazed you everyday.you actually amazed me every single moment in my life.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

children church

hehe..
saw the blue fishy..?
today i went to my church children service..
its really been a long time since i listen back to pastor jessica sharing..
so all children include me did this cute little blur fishy with a memory verse stick in it..
although children are kinda naughty but they really have a pure heart..
they are kinda naive and innocent..
when i look at them i think back when i used to be a kid..
haha..
am i energytic like them..?
am i so naughty like them..?
am i the most talkative in the class..?
miss those time..
i feel so happy when i saw them laughing and enjoying themselves..
and especially they are so naive with some questions pastor asked..
i feel like a children when i am with them doing the handcrafts,sing and play games together..
hehe..
i need to have more love and more patient towards kids..
need to learn..
HTS children a.k.a HTS mighty LAMB,you guys can do it through CHRIST who strengthen you all..
JIAYOU childrens.!!

k box

last friday was my school open day..
mum just spent 2minutes talking with the teacher..
hoho..
i am a good boy..
but i failed 4 subjects..
must JIAYOU!!
so after that we went to parade and K-BOX..
this time K-BOX without girls..
syok lerh..
can sing all you want..
LOL..
really appreciate the time we went together bro..

we are not friends but we are BROTHERS forever.!


megan fox

so have you guys watch transformer 2.?
even you did not i guess you sure know who is this girl in the picture above..
hehe..
yeah!she is megan fox..
there is no doubt that she is hot and sexy..
LOL
may be most of the guys would wish for a girlfriend like her..
but WAIT!!!
she is originally a MAN..
xD
click this link to read more..

http://weeklyworldnews.com/celebs/4783/megan-fox-is-a-man/

LOL..
at first i thought my friend was joking..
but after that he show me the evidence then i was so so so shocked!!
a guy?!
i still remember when i told this truth to some of my friends in school they were shocked and this is how they responsed..

"hah?!a guy?what the **** you know what?!i still dream of dating her in my dream..now only i realised it was a nightmare..T.T"

"i went to watch transformer just because i want to see her not megatron or bumblebee..i still thought want to watch for 2nd time..but now i think i better watch the robots.."

"a guy??hmmmm..i wonder how SAM can so courageous to kissed her..french kiss somemore i guess.."

"ceh..guy jek ma..if give me few hundred thousands i also will kiss her larh..i mean HIM..she is so HOT!haha"

well for me..
she is hot and sexy for me..
but i cant denied the truth that she is a guy..
LOL

P/s:lets not blame ourselves for the mistakes we done but lets work out the mistakes so it wont repeat.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

update

okay..
guess what..
i didnt kena NS..
LOL..
should i be happy or sad..
pity some of my friends who fell so depress after knowing themselves got NS..
ya forgot to update..
other than my bro got chicky pox my sis also kena..
so i asked my mum..
"mii,i kena chicky pox jor right when i was around 7 years old..?"
mum replied,"hah?ya meh..?got meh..?dont remember orh.i think you still not yet kena chicky pox.."
SHOCKED!!!
what.?!!
okay!!
i am actually convincing myself that i have already kena..
i really forgot have i kena chicky pox or not..
owh!!
i dont want be like cheryl who become cheryl jackson..
xD
F.Y.I cheryl also kena chicky pox..
yay!!happy ^^V
so whats next..
hmmmm..
will blog once i figure them..

P/s:i will be honest to you all the time.

Friday, July 3, 2009

back!

i am back!!
hoho..
my monitor was down since monday..
LOL
thats why i didnt get to online and blog..
hmmm..
so monday was kinda a bad day for me..
1st.monitor rosak..fine!just tahan not to online..
2nd.bro kena chicken pox.LOL!really pity him..so now i am currently his maid..i need to take care of him..better treat me good orh next time if i sick..
3rd.phone keypad rosak.!argh!cant text out..cham!
4th.during midnight house suddenly blackout..no electricity..hoho!how to sleep lerh..?luckily around 1something got electricity back..but i overslept and the next day i didnt go to school.BAD BOY JOHN!!
although many bad things happened to me but good things happened also..
i didnt go through this time alone but with someone..
thanks ya=)

P/s:i promised you will be with you.i will.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

heart


P/s:finally you know the shape of my HEART

Friday, June 26, 2009

blek!


LOL..
actually this picture was taken one night before my birthday and i thought gonna post it the next day..
but turn out i forgot about it..
hmm..
life has been good these few days..
finally i handed up my add maths and moral folio..
muahaha!!
freedom~
at last i can start to concentrate study on my undang book..
haha..
next coming saturday will be taking undang test..
please pleaseeeeeee...
i dont want to fail..
i want to faster get my driving license..
hehe..
anyway the song in my blog is for her..
enjoy~

P/s:every moment,every minute,every second.i will not forget.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

random

hmmm..
nothing much to blog these few days..
everything is kinda normal..
tomorrow need to pass up moral folio and..
OPS!
i did a very big mistake..
i wrote all the essays too near the place it need to bind which mean if i bind t few words will lost..
GOSH!!
please dont ask me to do it all over again..
save me~
finally finally..!!
FINALLY..
i start to take up a book and read..
although i cant spend like few hours reading and doing revision but i believe this is a good start..
hoho!!
anyway share with you a very meaningful song..
=)



P/s:we need to separate from each other then our distance can only pull closer

Monday, June 22, 2009

fern fern


hehe..
saw this pretty and cute girl..?
her name is fern fern..(pronounce as foon foon)
she is 9 years old this year..
i get to knew her in children camp in my church during holiday..
you guys sure think that ''owh JOHN..you like a small girl that is only 9years old.?!"
you are RIGHT..!
haha..
but too bad i am elder than her 8 years..
LOL..
thats kinda too much for me..
how good if she is 13 or 14 this year..
=P
anyway she is really a cute girl..
BUT she dislike me and always hit my head with balloon in camp..
i will sure visit her in cameron during holiday to seek for revenge..
LOL joking joking..
fern fern!!
wait for meeee.....

P/s:you have a position in my heart.